Grief

A close friend of the family had a personal crisis recently, and it got me thinking about my life.

I have never known grief. I’ve been sad, I’ve been pretty down & out occasionally, but even when I hit my all-time personal low, I still did not know grief. I’ve never had anyone close to me die, and I’m not quite sure what will happen when I do.

It brings me back to emphasize something I wrote in an earlier post. My reaction to many things in my life is one of removed indifference. Almost like I’m watching from the outside. So I wonder, when someone close to me goes, will I finally feel a depth of emotion that has previously eluded me?

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3 Responses to “Grief”

  1.   samjkh Says:
    November 16th, 2005 at 2:46 pm

    Amusing blog!

  2.   Jager Says:
    November 19th, 2005 at 12:57 pm

    I’ve lost numerous family members including siblings, etc, and it is no fun. If you’ve never experienced it I’d say you must be young. Enjoy that. There will come a time when it seems loved ones are leaving at a sickening rate and it’s a terrible feeling, but it is life.

  3.   Jason Says:
    November 23rd, 2005 at 4:05 pm

    Everyone’s reaction is different. The only way to know is to actually experience it for yourself which, unfortunately, will come with time. When I lost my first relative I think I handled myself pretty well until the funeral when I saw my family cry. Then, being the wise ass I am, I just blurted out “this is why they call them funerals and not mardi gras!” A defense mechanism which works, kinda.