Suburban Goddess

You completely take your mother for granted until you have a child. Then, you suddenly have an epiphany, “OH MY GOD, SHE WAS RIGHT ABOUT EVERYTHING!!!” And you are humbled, and it’s like you start life over with a new understanding and appreciation for exactly what it means to be taken for granted. You had NO IDEA what it was like to be taken for granted before you had that kid. Life is HARD with a child.

Then you look at women who have more than one child. These women should be held with the same reverence as Olympic marathon runners. It takes STAMINA to keep up with just ONE… it takes an impairment of mental judgement to elect to multiply that factor. (ARE you CRAZY???) These women are, in my book, either completely insane or incredibly enlightened. Maybe it’s a little bit of both.

But then you take the single mothers, and now you have a level of respect that I have only recently learned to understand. To do it all by yourself, you are stronger than anyone could ever imagine. There are days I cannot cope with the overwhelming sense of disappointment… I broke down this weekend and called my mother to come help me. It is now that I am learning that for my daughter’s own good, I must swallow some of the pride I’ve hidden behind for so long and ask for help. My mother remembers that even as a baby, I was fiercely independent, wanting to do everything myself. It’s 31 years of self-sufficience, 31 years of stubbornness, 31 years of pride… to go against everything that you’ve ever been.

That’s what you will do for your child.

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