Words, words, words

Everyday you hear words, but some days, in the proper configuation, they can just rip your heart out.

I’m getting a divorce.

To say it makes my heart stop, to think about it makes my brain numb, and to look in my daughter’s face and know that I’ve failed her makes me ache for the life I knew just a few short years ago. The life I expected to live with her in it. That life is gone.

I’m so angry, and so resentful. I want to scream & yell about the unfairness of it, but what good does that do? It will never melt his cold, empty heart, and I will never have what I had before anyway. Empty promises, broken dreams, words, words, words….

…in the end, it all meant nothing. And so I start again, down the path to look for a true & lasting love. I can’t give up on the idea.

It’s the only hope I have left.

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2 Responses to “Words, words, words”

  1.   salcam Says:
    March 6th, 2007 at 6:30 am

    for lack of anyhting better - BUMMIN’. That really bites for you and the kidlet.

    I hope life gets better for you soon. You both deserve it!

  2.   Jason Says:
    March 6th, 2007 at 7:26 am

    First of all you didn’t fail your child. Second, my wife has been divorced before and she felt the same way you do now. Now, her and I have been together for going on 7 years, the longest relationship either of us have had. This won’t ease the hurt I know. Time will. Just keep hanging in there.