Uninspired
I apologize for being so quiet this week; it’s been a rough one. My home went up for sale, my big yellow truck (and train horn) are gone, & my daughter is off with her father for the weekend. I’ve also been juggling the issues that arise when you’re buying a home for the first time, dealing with a divorce the second time, and trying desparately not to bite the head off everyone around you for the third time.
So now that I’ve got the whining out of the way, I decided a couple of months ago to go visit an old friend who can hook me up with some potentially VIPs in the graphics world. So I packed my bags last night and I’m prepared to go on my first weekend adventure all by myself.
It sounds silly, but I’m 31 years old and until now, I’ve never planned a trip by myself. Someone has always taken care of the details for me. I realized with great excitement that at this point in my life, there is not a damn thing stopping me from doing this whenever I choose to. And now, I can go on that cruise I’ve been thinking about (a GeekCruise, Photoshopping 7 days in the Bahamas! WooHoo!). And I have friends who are willing to travel to Italy with me who will actually appreciate the architecture, the wine, and the ambience of Tuscany… and maybe, just maybe, I might find the romantic kind of love that I’ve missed for so long. But I’m in no hurry to start that search yet…
My best friend called earlier this week to ask me to run a marathon in Phoenix in January, and for a moment, I paused. Then I realized, there is absolutely nothing stopping me from saying yes. I wanted to do it, and as long as I plan a little in advance for the finances involved, there is no one else’s plans in the way of mine.
It was the strangest feeling. And I liked it.
So although I’ve been uninspired to write, my spirit is inspired at the moment. For the first time in a very long time, I’m spending less time writing about life and finally LIVING it. In the moment, right now, good & bad.
Hello world. The real Kristie is back.