Suburban Goddess

Why is it that some people only see your worth after someone else has recognized it? You put yourself out there, your heart and soul, letting them know that you would be willing to take a leap of faith despite your horrible past experiences… and they act completely non-chalant.

Yeah, I know you’re single. I’ll keep you around for a while, but I won’t commit.

And so it goes for a while, until you realize that you might be investing a lot of energy in someone who has monster commitment issues, and perhaps you’re wasting your time…. so you cry about it for a few days, dust yourself off, pick yourself back up, put on some new shoes and go back out to try again.

And you meet someone new. And they’re pretty interesting. So you start to pull away from the past, and start to look towards the future…

…and the next thing you know, the past is sitting on your doorstep with a whole new attitude. The “why-are-dating-someone-else-I-thought-we-had-something-together” attitude. Commitment is still an issue (on his part), but the expectations of you are different.

I have absolutely no reason to feel guilty about this. I’ve done nothing wrong. I’ve been honest and open, but I’ve tried to be considerate about it…. and for what? Am I supposed to believe that the past finally has a vision of the future?

I wish I could believe that. I really do. But I just can’t. Committing to someone just so they won’t commit to someone else is the wrong reason to commit. You can spin it any way you like…

It will always point to the same answer.

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