Happy Birthday
Today is the two year anniversary of this blog. To celebrate, I started at the beginning and speed-read through all my old posts.
God, my life has changed.
There were good things about my marriage; I’d forgotten them in my bitter rage. Alex has changed completely. And good grief, I sure did bitch about some of the STUPIDEST stuff…
But over time, there has been a pronounced change in my demeanor. I’m older. I’m more cynical. I’m bitter. I’m angry. I’m disillusioned. But I’ve still got that one thing that refuses to die, no matter how many men betray me or lie to me, no matter how many people set out to deliberately hurt me… you can’t kill my spirit. You can’t drag me down with you, because despite the many obstacles life has placed in my way, I still have this one thing that refuses to die.
Hope.
So I will carry on, writing what’s in my heart. And I will look back in another year, and see how far I’ve come.
October 2nd, 2007 at 4:09 am
Your blog has and does bring allot hope to all of us. It shows you for what you are, a real woman who struggles through life’s challenges, enjoys the joys and despite the bad, won’t give up on the possiblity of good. It shows all of us the hope. Thanks for what you do.
July 28th, 2008 at 1:52 pm
My mother wrote in a personal bible she gave me as a teen “Be true to your spirit”.
Good way to be, very good.