Policy of Truth
Transparency: I’ve heard this term a lot the past few weeks. One of the great Christian principles is transparency; be real, be open, be honest. It’s something I started trying to be in all my relationships. In so doing, some of my relationships have strengthened more than I ever imagined…
Others have become unbearably complicated.
The problem with honesty is that it is often followed closely by conflict. Because sometimes, people don’t want to hear the truth. And after a while, things that you thought were true start to come under fire, until you’re left hopelessly confused wondering what the hell really IS true and what’s been twisted beyond recognition.
But I know what the truth is within myself, if I stop and look for it. I know right from wrong, and now, when I’m faced with a decision to do the right vs. the wrong thing, I cannot willingly lie… my conscience won’t allow it anymore. My heart quickens, my breathing becomes shallow, and I get the worst anxiety that I’ve ever experienced.
It’s forced me to change the way I deal with people. It puts me in some pretty uncomfortable situations… but in the end, I know I’ve done the right thing. Even when it’s really, really hard.
August 28th, 2008 at 6:06 am
This is where i become a bit of an ass (yeah, more so than usual): Transparency is NOT a christian principle. The word is not in the bible, and is certainly not practiced by the church. Sure thou shalt not lie is about as close as you are going to get to transparency, but that is about it.
August 28th, 2008 at 6:08 am
But, I still <3 the suburban goddess, she makes me smile, and validates my evil thoughts
August 28th, 2008 at 7:21 am
God I enjoy reading your stuff. Is like looking at my self, though you write much better.
St Augustine had this same problem. Defining a comparative path clarifying the bad on one side and the good on the other, so to walk in the middle. It was not a good thing a certain some one taught you guilt for questions, by: Presuming your questions as accusations, and the constant character assassination’s by lack of empathy. Not quite evil, but certainly not good.
Careful the conflict, seeking an answer and finding yourself cut short by another is not your problem, quit accusing yourself because you asked a question. The Anxiety I think comes from the balance between knowledge and spirit, best I can name it would be your selfs refusal to accept a reality without balance. Philosophers battled this for many hundreds of years, then Christ came along and resolved it. Freud, Jung, and many others passed by here and have view points that help, but I suspect you will find as others have who passed this way, in your own way, on your path, as it must, with Christ I pray.