The World Is A Vampire
Here lately, it feels like I’m been flamed more than usual. I have a stalker on the Chron blog, my ex-boss sent me a vicious email claiming that I’m incapable of doing what I said I could, and an ex-co-worker decided to take a cheap shot at me on a friend’s public profile.
It seems like the harder I try to be nice, the nastier people are. So that go me thinking…. am I really that nice after all?
My ex-boss; I’ll give him a pass. I mean, I did flame his wife in a public forum. While in my mind, I felt I was just venting (and I had NO IDEA they even knew I had a blog), I deserved that one. I had no right blasting them in public the way that I did. So I’ll eat that karma sandwich.
The blog stalker? Well, I guess I kind of deserve that as well… but only because I put everything out on the Internet. While there’s no excuse for nastiness, it’s only expected when you put your life out there and open it up for comments.
But the last one really annoyed me. I’ve crossed some people in my life… sometimes intentionally, sometimes unintentionally. When I was younger, I was really a raging witch at times. But when I had Alex, it grounded me (somewhat) and I realized that the world wasn’t going to get any better if people didn’t make an effort…. starting with me. So a kinder, gentler Christina was born.
But not before I pissed this woman off.
I don’t even remember what I did to her, but whatever it was, she’s a grudge holder. It’s been over SIX YEARS, and she still lashes out at me with venom. I thought she might be joking for a moment, and then I realized she wasn’t. And I wondered… what the heck did I do that she would still carry so much anger towards me six years later? I had tried to apologize to her, but she was nasty to me then, too… choosing to call me two-faced and backstabbing, and just getting more upset as I tried to explain that I was no longer the same person I’d been.
So I was quite surprised to see her flame me yet again, years later, on a friend’s Facebook account. I’d even forgotten the woman existed, but she obviously still remembers me with a red flame burning in her heart… and I wonder how some people can carry so much anger. I mean, I’m still angry at my ex-husband, but not like this woman is angry at me. I don’t know if I should pity her, or flame her back.
I mean, I like to let the claws air out sometimes…. but I know it’s not the right thing to do.