Logic
“It’s like you take a dump, but you refuse to flush the toilet… and it just sits here, getting stinkier and stinkier, but you won’t flush. You NEED to flush the toilet!”
I laughed at my best friend’s advice, but the more I thought about it, the more I realized that he was right. I hold on to worthless things… hell, worse than worthless. Crappy! My life is full of crap that is so easily removed, yet I hang on to it… and I’m not quite sure why. Is it the crippling fear of change? Is there comfort in the misery? Obviously not… I feel like crap. I live with anxiety that has become so overwhelming that at times I question my own sanity. I long for peace in my life again; I wonder if I will ever find the elusive emotion again.
I know it all comes with letting go. Why is that so damn hard for me?